Job kind of moment

Well, I had a real Job like moment last night. I was having a tough time surrendering everything to God as far as my mixed martial arts career goes. I have a fight this weekend and on the way home from training things started getting really bad. It wasn't anything major, just thoughts and misplacing stuff. One thing led to another and then I was desperately crying out to God the way Job did. I was asking what he was intending on doing with my life and I just got angry. I wondered why so many other people who follow Christ had so many wonderful things and how their lives were going so well and why some things from the past are still seeming to haunt me. I was pretty angry.
Later on that night at Campus Crusade for Christ, the speaker talked about God's love. That really knocked me back on my butt and I really gave the competition I have this weekend to God. I feel that I got an answer like Job. God didn't say why I wasn't being blessed with certain things the way others are, but he basically used the speaker last night to say to me, "Erick, look at all my love for you. I have given you life and a savior!" I didn't need any more of an answer after that. I think I understand Job a little bit more now. God seems to give answers that don't directly aswer, but for some reason it is more direct than the direct answer. I think Job understood what he was saying to him and it was the most efficient aswer for suffering.